Oh New Year...Where Are You???

Today I took my mom and two of my aunts for dinner to one of my favorite restaurants La Pantera Rosa (pink panther). While I was paying the check I noticed that someone had been trying to call me nonstop, unfortunately in Mexico my phone dose not register the number of who is calling, all numbers show as private. Then my phone rings again, it’s my sister telling me that my house was broken into. All I could think was “not again”, if someone six months ago would have said that in the following six months all of the events that have happened would happen, I would have never believed them. Yet so many things have changed and happened, that there has been times where I don't know where to run to. Can’t wait for the New Year.

Christmas

12/24

Christmas Eve! Has been a good night, my family from Mexico City is here. We had a few drinks and listened to the banda playing outside my door.


12/25

Christmas Day! This was a lazy day; I didn’t get out of my pajamas until the afternoon. The kitchen looks like a buffet since last night, there is so much food. My dad brought a box of fresh picked strawberries, guess what I eat. Later my cousin took me to buy a cake, I had been craving a pastel de tres leches for days; we got the cake and on our way back stopped and bought another two boxes of strawberries. I should be making strawberries agua fresca sometime soon.

In Mexico at last

I arrived to Mexico, things look a little different. I feel a little lost, it has been two years. I don’t seem to have a good sense of direction of cities or towns. It feels a little weird and I feel out of place, I'll figure it out.

My house has fresh paint, a new bathroom, my sister’s room has an arch and I'll be sleeping in a new mattress.

Another day

Today is just another day...it's been 5 months, but at times it feels like it was last week. I know it was not my imagination, It was real.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONCY0xnefAE&NR=1

My desires

Some days I,
Want to fill a void
Want to stop
Want to run
Others I just "want"

Birthday

This has been a sucky birthday, I had an exam today and everyone seems to be busy doing their own thing. I can't expect for the world to stop, just because it's my birthday. I'll rent a movie tonight. All I wanted was some cake. :'(

Escape

These past couple of weeks have been overwhelming for me. Last week I had two exams, for which I needed to prepare for. This week it's the same story in addition to everyday life. The problem is that stressing does not help, if anything it only adds to my situation. Not only dose it prevent me from fully concentrating, but I feel that it dose not allow me to retain information to my full capacity. I've come to the conclusion that this is something that we all experience every now and then. I can't really come up with a straight solution. Therefore the question is, what can I do to escape from myself? I need to let my brain to rest...Is that even possible?!?

Maya Angelou - Still I Rise

Today I found out that Maya Angelou is ill and is hospitalized (reasons not known). All that I can say is that I wish her health. She is pronominal woman, one that has inspired may of us with her words. This has been my favorite poem since my freshmen year in high school. Like dust, I'll rise.

Still I Rise

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

San Diego

What can I say....I have not been doing much lately. I was in San Diego about 2 weeks ago. I had a fabulous time. I will try to keep it short...arrived to SD and picked up a car. First we went to Ocean Beach, from there to Mission Beach, and then to Downtown; to the Gas Lamp District. The Gas Lamp Dis. is a great place to visit for the night life, walk around, have dinner, or for some drinks. On Saturday we went to La Jolla Beach, the most beautiful of the SD beaches in my opinion. Followed by a nice lunch at the Little Italy Dis. Later we went back to Mission Beach for a Gregory Issac Reggae concert which was very fun. It's great to be at a concert wearing shorts, sandals, and sand between your feet. Lastly on Sunday we meet up with other friends and went to New Port Beach for lunch, before catching our flight back home. Overall it was fun and can't wait to go back. Did I mention that I love the beach!! :D

BlizzCon

I got back from Anaheim yesterday. I was there for the BlizzCon 2009 convention. Let me just say that BlizzCon was a great experience. I did not think that I was going to make it, but it must have been meant to be and could not be any happier that it turned out that way. Thanks Chris!
Since the moment that we arrived to Anaheim on Thursday it was go, go, go, nonstop. We checked into the Hilton and headed out to pick up our lanyard (passes) as well as our goody bags. The bags have a code for Gunty a vanity pet. Also came with a noob collector's items. The line was long we were there for about 2hrs, but it gave me an idea of what to expect the next morning. We took our bags back to the hotel and went for dinner to Joe's Crab Shack. They served tasty Kings Crab (1st time for me) and also some fabulous Crab Nachos. We walked back to our room and of course as it has been recently I was not tiered. To make myself tired I ended up going downstairs to the bar and talking to some people, who happen to be very friendly.
On Friday morning we got up around 6am and got ready for day one at BlizzCon. We were in line by 7:40am waiting for the doors to open at 10am. Well the guys stayed in line, as I made my Starbucks run, where I was in line for about an hour (things that we will do for some coffee). When the doors open we had got seats for the big announcements, some exciting things are happening for some of the classes, changes to WoW world as I know it, expansions, and lots of good stuff. The rest of the day we got to attend some of the panels, booths, and just enjoy and explored the place. Later in the evening we had the Dance, Voice, and costume competition. I was surprised to see so much talent, also in between the shows they showed some music videos that were awarded. One video that I loved is "Don't Make Me Get My Main" it's a must watch. We went back to our room around 10pm.
Saturday Chris and I got up extra early to get ready. He was down stairs in front of the line by 7:15am. We were some of the first to get in. I was fortunate enough to Play Diablo III, that was super fun. I enjoyed the graphics and surprisingly I could play, so proud, so proud. I also played the new WoW patch "Cataclysm" that was fun...O.o. I played the Alliance puppy, but only to see their weakness. I also played StarCraft II, that really sucked, I did not the minor idea for how to play. Lets just say that I was killed, gave up, and quit the game. On a good note Saturday's concert Rocked literally. Ozzy closed out the show with a great concert. I would have never thought that I would see him perform, but once again it's one of those things that when you never plan it and it just happens it makes everything better. After all out tears for the end to BlizzCon weekend, we went pack to the room changed and headed to the swimming pool. Daniel's friends showed up and we all went to Denny's. I enjoyed their company. We walked back to the hotel got ready for bed and before I knew it I was sleeping (Yay sleeping).
In summery It was a great/fabulous weekend!

Mini Vacation

I took a well deserved mini vacation that began last Thursday. Not going to go into very much detail, I'll just name the places that I was fortunate enough to visit.
On Thursday night I stayed in Solvang and went to the Cumash casino.
Friday Morning went to The Santa Inez mission and stayed for mass. Later that morning left to Oxnard, visited my grandmother, and made a little time for the beach. To end the night my cousin took me out to a club there in town, unfortunately neither one of us liked the ambiance and ended up leaving after 15 minutes. The drive back to my aunts was funner than the club. LOL!
Saturday morning I got up early. I visited my grandmother again, around 10am I went to San Fernando Valley to visit a cousin; from there we went to LA and did some shopping. We got back around 4pm. I went back to Oxnard around 7pm. At 9pm my cousin from Oxnard and I left to a night club in Pico Rodeo, as an attempt to make up for the night before. Saturday's live music was great!
Sunday I got up early went back to my cousin's in SF Valley and we went to Santa Monica. It was truly beautiful, I'm in love with that beach. Later that evening I left for Huntington Park, there I met with some more family and had an easy night with some Starbucks.
Monday morning we took off to Long Beach riding the Metro, where btw I got a bruise in my arm from slamming my arm into a pole. In Long Beach we took a 45min tour boat, it was very interesting history about the harbor, port, and man made islands. It was a great learning experience. That night I visited the Americana Brand plaza in Glendale. It is surrounded by great exclusive shops as well as high-end condos. Overall a great place to visit for shopping or for an enjoyable lunch. Also it has a hypnotizing fountain that host different water patterns (hard to take my eyes off of it).
Tuesday was Monica's B-day we went to a convalescent home and helped sing some rancheras, it made everyone there very happy. Singing old songs helps the elders remember their good times. We had lunch at Hometown Buffet (easy). Later that evening we went to visit some other people. We wanted to have a bon fire at the beach, but we were told that the beach closes at 10pm and it was already 8pm, that was the end to the night. :(
Finally yesterday I came home. I missed my room, happy to be back safe!

Santa Monica

Santa Monica, I love it there! Makes my heart happy! I was there on Saturday and just had a wonderful time.
The ocean brings me great; allows me to think and breath clearly. The sun showers me with it's glow and suddenly I smile at it's beauty. I can cry and have the ocean take my tears into the depth of the sea. It's the place where I am free. In short the waves take anything negative and always bring back their gift, gift of joy and hope. I love the beach!

Underappriciated

I'm having one of those weeks, for some reason Tuesday is always the hardest day of the week for me, so I have noticed. Yesterday I felt like I did not accomplish much. I attempted to get some things done, but I got started too late. The end of my night did not go very well. Someone made me feel less important, I agree with the reasons (reasons that at one time were my idea), but now I still can't help to feel that I can be easily be replaced by just about anyone. There are two people for whom I would be more then happy to give up my place for, but at this point it feels like anyone will do. Anyone as long as it is not me. Yes, of course it hurts.

Poetic

The other night,
I mistaken you for a shooting star
and I asked for three wishes
while I could see your light

Dejame llorar
dejame llorar (por ti)
dejame llorar

2009 Gold Cup

Today I watched the Gold Cup soccer game championship USA vs. Mexico. Not only was I expecting a great game, but I was also thrilled that no matter who won, the cup would stay here, in North America. Let the better of my two favorites Win.
With out a doubt I assumed that the US was going to win and wow was I surprise...Mexico won 5 to 0, they took their 5th Golden Cup home. How can that be? In most Golden Cups as well as in other encounters the US will not even let Mexico touch the ball (yes the US is good, for those of you that don't know it). It was very unexpected to see Mexico score all 5 goals in the second half. What happened to the US? Why would they not even score one goal?? To be honest I was disappointed. I would have liked for them to have more control over the game.
Either way, I love Mexico he my culture, the USA she is my country...what can I say I owe them both who I am.

Please feel free to look at this pic all you want *wink wink* (Vela)

Persuasive Speech

Today I gave a Persuasive Speech for my Career Communications class about Lupus. Maybe sometime I will post my outline here. I was a little disappointed to noticed that I had received a score of 88 from 100. To my surprise one of the comments from my professor was that, the noise of my heels distracted the audience away from me, the speaker. I hate it, but I must agree Yes Stiletto do make some clacking sound.
Tonight here I am wondering if that is a valid reason to deduct point?
Thinking more about it....I do not think that given the opportunity I would have changed my shoes, perhaps I would have walked slower or would have been more careful in order to avoid noise. Reality is that, I'm not one of those girls that will be caught wearing clear plastic wedges. I love stilettos and always will. Pumps are classy, make your legs look great, and they give you that extra boost of empowerment. Stilettos are me, my personality, some will say that it is the corporate in me and they are right. In the corporate world why would you not wear stilettos, when giving a presentation?? I know I would, sneakers are not even an option.
Stilettos all the way!!!!

RADIOACTIVE WOMAN

Lately I get up every morning and tell myself that "Today Is a New Day"! Along with that, I also tell myself that "Today Will Be Better Then Yesterday". The question is...Is today really a new day? Is it any better? Or is it always a continuation of yesterday? Let's just say that I have been having some of the worst days the last couple of weeks. Well I had to take some crazy medication a few weeks go. The next week my boyfriend broke up with me. He's moved on, and today after my two hours of sleep last night, as I was cleaning my room...the mail arrived. Here I was with a medical bill for over $81,000. To my surprise I called and I was told that, that's what I owe for medication and doctors visits. Well I'm going to fight it. I was told that it would cost about $300 by the doctor himself. What is Kaiser thinking? So do days really get better? If so, after how long? It's been a month for me. Share your day.

Sleep Deprived

Good morning early birds! Let start off with a question. Why is sleep so important?? Well we all know that it's vital and a necessity, so why is it that so many of us can't sleep? It's past 5:30 am and I have heard my neighbors leave for work and I am still awake listing to the birds sing. Don't get me wrong it's beautiful to wake up in the morning and see the sunrise as the moon begins to slowly drift away. My problem is that I have seen two too many moons, two too many sunrises in two days. Sweet dreams.

Do you wonder why?

People ask, why do I love you?
I respond, because he is my friend.
Only for him does my heart beat.
Only him does my heart love.
Only in his arms is my heart safe.

People ask, why do I love you with my heart?
I respond, because my heart does not lie.
My heart tells me it's right.
My mind stopped understanding reason.
My mind understands only our love.

People ask, why do I love you with my mind?
I respond, because my mind only thinks of him.
My mind can't imagine life without him.
My mind dreams day and night of him.
My soul calls for him.

People ask, why do I love you with my soul?
I respond, because his soul is good.
His soul is faithful.
His soul is pure.
He is my soul.

Do you still wonder why I love you?
Because I rejoice on the day that you came to my life.
Because this love has no pain, no fear, no doubt.
Because with you I am strong, invincible, loved.
Because only you are worthy of my love.

Erica

Quién diría

The song "Quién diría" reminds me of my relationship and how being like water and oil, even though at times difficult It is also a great gift. We never time to get bored, because we are different there is always something new. The important thing is that we have each other and that we work on accepting one another. Where is the fun in having someone that is just like you?? Have you ever had oil and vinegar? If you have you know that they never mix, yet it's delicious combination when you have them together (especially with fresh warm bread). Embrace the differences. *Italics some of my fav lines*

Dice la gente que tú y yo no hacemos compañía,
Por ser agua y aceite que ironía, Si fuésemos iguales que apatía, No tendríamos de que hablar cada siguiente día.

Quién diría, quién diría que son años,
Los que ya llevamos juntos de la mano,
Quién diría, quién diría que lo importante, Es aceptarte y que me aceptes como humano.

Ricardo Arjona

Why I Blog

Well here is why I want to become a blogger. Not because everybody does it, but because I want to do it for myself....so that I have a place where I can post my thought rather, then keeping them to myself. I might also find it therapeutic...you might laugh, but it's true. Plus, if I ever get around to it...I might start browsing other people's blogs for ideas, begin to comment and then who knows, maybe one day I will follow. :)

Monterey Bay

My loving boyfriend and I went to Monterey for the weekend to celebrate our one year anniversary. We had a fabulous time, hot chocolate, aquarium, clam chowder, walks, ocean view. I'm not very good with words, so at times I wonder, if he knows how much I appreciate the things that he does for me. I want to make him happy, I strive to be more of what he would like his girlfriend to be. He deserves for me to only be the best that I can be, for him, for myself, for us! I feel that at times telling him that I love him is not enough....if I only knew how to show or say it; If only he could feel what I feel he would know it (joy when I see him, his voice in my head telling me that he loves me, the butterflies of excitement)! I love him with all my heart, even when I don't know how to show it. For him I have done what I never had, because we love each other. <3